We’ve been talking a lot about gender identity in school… but not in the way that I like to hear… mostly about the gender constructs of society. I makes me realize how much even university reinforces the gender constructs, all we talk about is what girls are meant to be and boys are meant to be in a very typical way (ie, “okay class, what are typical girls toys and typical boys toys?” “barbies for girls and trucks for boys teacher!” “very good!”. unnng.

It’s especially difficult for me, as someone who is striving to break down the gender norms and gender barriers… I want a vulva to be able to be called a dick… I want a girl with a penis and a hairy body to still be able to live their life out as a female… I want the barriers of girl and boy and everything in between to break down, become entropy and chaos, in a fluid manner…

I think of sex chromosomes and how indeterminate they are… you can be xy, xx, xxy yxyxyxyxy and still realize that your sex is not determined by it, and especially not your gender.

I don’t quite know what I’m trying to say… I guess I just want to support you. I do understand how it feels so, so hard, and I know it sucks so, so much…

If only we could all transcend our bodies, or transform at will with how we truly felt, I feel like everyone would love themselves a little more easily, but instead self love comes with a struggle of self identity with a body that you did not choose.